A long, dark car ride is on my mind. Stopping for Combos on November 4 at a convenience store on Route 4 called Mike's, I thought about the mysterious movie theater candy, "Mike 'n' Ike's". Now, when I pass by, my eyes always look for it. "Here's the Mike's where I got Combo's." A chilly evening the month before looking out the window of the dormitory, listening to the ocean. During the long, dark car ride, I didn't want to be sitting there with my eyes on the road. I felt alone in a completely new way. I wanted to be cuddled up in bed. But no such luck, because of the work schedule. This is what I mean when I say I thought I was invincible. Was I wrong? I don't know, because I wouldn't like to think I've been defeated. Today I wore a dragon fly pin and special earrings. These things adorn me and they help me remember to be calm and grateful, to remember everything, not just the sweet sad things, but also the things that are joyous, beautiful, and actually better today than they were in 2003. I don't need everything to be better, but its all right to admit that some things are.